Epic Potty Training FAIL

Okay, today has not been a good day.  I talked with Caleb this morning about both of us trying really hard to make it a good day.  We even “pinky swore,” that we would do our best.  Well, both of us failed.  Things were going fairly well for a few hours.  He and Quinn were watching an episode of Dino Dan on the computer in the dining room, and I was chopping vegetables in the kitchen for a crock pot dinner.  I went in and asked Caleb to go in and go potty, since it had been a while.  I paused the show and reminded him of our pinky swear.  He went in there with only a little whining, which is better than sometimes.  I followed him after I had paused the show on the computer to find him standing next to the sink in a giant puddle of pee!  WHAT????  He purposefully stood next to the sink and emptied his entire bladder.  So, that was how he broke his pinky swear.

I shamefully report that I completely lost it.  I yelled at him and made him clean it up.  I proceeded to stomp around the house and spout off about how upset I was and how he was in so much trouble.  Then I sent him to his room.

What is wrong with me?  What is wrong with him?  Why can’t he just go in the potty without all the drama?  Why do I have to take it so personally and let my anger take over?  At this point I am so exhausted by these antics, I just feel like putting him back in diapers and giving up!  It would be different if he were having true accidents.  These are not accidents. He can go for a whole week without an accident.  He definitely does this on purpose.  I know it’s probably my fault, but what do I do now?  I am at a complete loss.  We have been working on this for MONTHS and we just seem to be going backward!!!